For the past couple of days, I’ve felt really edgy. The dictionary describes edgy as “tense, nervous, on edge, anxious, apprehensive, uneasy, unsettled, twitchy, jumpy, keyed up…” you get the idea. Anyway, those all describe me, but I have no idea why I’m feeling that way. I don’t feel like going out, but I end up wandering around the house, doing this and doing that, but not being able to settle at anything. I’m getting a lot of little jobs done, but not receiving much satisfaction. Finally, I did what anyone in this situation would probably do. I gave myself a temporary Indian tattoo on the side of my stomach! Yeah, I know… classy, huh? 
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Years ago I worked with a sophisticated, but sassy lady, let’s call her Gloria. She was older than me and seemed terribly worldly and was a blast to be around. She had been married and then divorced and then dated one of the astronauts for quite a long time. She had a naughty outrageous sense of humor and I loved bantering back and forth with her. She finally retired and moved down south.
This Christmas I got a letter and picture from her, well, not from her, exactly, but from her two daughters. She apparently has Alzheimer’s or dementia and now lives in a group home. The daughters talk about how her memory has faded but add that she still laughs now and then. But, it was the picture that got to me. It’s of her and the two daughters. The daughters look glamorous, like models. But my friend Gloria looks…how can I put this? She looks lost…confused…and a bit sad. It broke my heart. I couldn’t reconcile this woman in the picture with that crazy hell-raiser I used to know. And I could only think that, there, but for the grace of God, goes any one of us. It’s tragic. And it’s a reminder to cherish EVERY SINGLE DAY.
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As I’m writing this, I’m looking out the window and the sun is shining blindingly bright on the snow, but I know it’s still freezing outside. I’m thinking of suing Mother Nature for false advertising! I hate that brightness! What we need are more big puffy white clouds in the winter. I haven’t seen any lately. Why don’t you just wake me up when it’s spring, okay?
Have you noticed the days are getting a little longer? The temps are rising again and will be near 50 in a few days? Hang in there, Star, and eat healthy foods, keep your brain active, take Omega-3, and don’t worry about the future!
It sounds like you need a cup of hot chocolate and a hug.
Here’s the (((hug)))
Jayne